AkioAria26

Hello to all... yeah its been like... forever. been having some issue of life and work from years ago. maan, the work really drained ya soul. but yeah, I'm still around and all. just not here per say hehe.

but yeah, if some still around here, heyo.... sorry if i disappear all of the sudden. 

yeah hey, is been a while since I haven't used it here... well dead i guess. so yeah the job is really drained me out much of it. I can't say that I hate it or loved it, but is job hehe. so here goes of how my months or life has been through:

On job is really been some ups and downs. some costumer are nice, but some just really want to bite your butt off. i have so many stories to tell from my work, but i guess i'm not the only one who is going through this pain. so far been doing great from work, i mean i never realized that retails could be like, my good at it? maybe? they say that I'm patient with the customer and be kind to them. Even if they are mean to me or insulted, I'll try to be strong ... maybe. in other news, i somehow gained more weight from the stress from work. those maybe were that I don't take it too well for their sudden moments. aaannnd, i get those eating of my problems part. now I'm trying to get some diets, but... is really hard. 

most of my days off, i just wanna travels instead of drawing. and playing video for my distractions. I feel like I'm been in the jail for every day. cause i get home so tired and do nothing. I wanted to back on college so badly, but i can't cause of the student loans that I need start this year. been calling and notifications about my lates payments that I'm this close to going to jail for real. 
Sometimes i don't get patience from myself... i just wanna live my life. 

so in case some of you know, I'm from Puerto Rico. and some of you may heard of what happened in Puerto Rico from that hurricane Maria, is a complete devastated over there. and i'm okay,  been living in texas for at least 2 years from now. anyways yeah after what happened on my island, i was in the despair moment that i lost everyone over there. 2 weeks ago, i was been trying to see if i can contact from my friends and family. but I know later on that the communications are down. and you won't get contact them for a few days later.

those days, i was really shaken from this whole aftermath. I didn't say anyone about this cause... yeah, whole busy life and feared.

after those days has passed, the communications are lifted up and everyone from family and friends is okay. i hoped. so many news that the island isn't get helped, media makes some strong message for some twisting truth and trump just fly all the way to Puerto Rico to insulted them and throw some paper towels... cause he thinks some don't understand English.

i never trusted that umpa lumpa from the beginning. i mean why the hell did he even want to go over my island for? he's a cruel inhuman being. 

anyways, the help came a very late. people are dying over there from the hospital, loss houses and many roads that are broken. is apocalypse over there. people are stealing for surviving. 

I know that they are already been helping before all of this nightmare mode came... it just... they are scared over there.

having faith is not strongly for believing on them... 

umm yeah, all i could say that this is my biggest scar. is been flooded again from another heavy rain this month. and it would a really longest time to recover the island to back the way it was. days, weeks, months or even years that it would be better... or not.. 

 but yeah, wait and see as they said. 

 

soo yeaaah, I have dreamed one day that I'll get a professional camera. and i did, for many hard working hours, pains, and suffering... I got a camera;-; 

is a Nikon P900. this baby can take pictures of the closest to the moon. and i have some pictures to show and tells sooo hope you like some pictures I took. 

man, is been a while that i haven't took some pictures. 

So, I have been a little down lately. well, sort of. Been thinking of what should I do with my life again.
seeing that some of my friends just graduated and starting somewhere on their dreams... I keep thinking about mine too. I wish I could finish my degree before the moved out. 
but there was some tough decision I made that this was my chance to live here in the state. to find the job at least. 

I wanted to back to finished of my graphic designer, but as a right now I have to pay off my student loans.... which means that is gonna be a long time. i don't know what would be my other goal after the whole payment of my student loans. I just... wish I could be more successor like to some of ya. have something to hold that maybe I could reach it somewhere of my future. 

i don't wanna be this age where everyone has their life planned out, while I still haven't gone moved out from their parents... I just wanted to live my life somewhere you know. 

yeah, wanted to say that out loud.